A Word

To my love,

A word – holding its sound in my mouth. Traveling the circumference of my tongue. Gently tickling the inside of my skull.

How does one hold a word? To ferry these feelings, that even my body can not contain. I am scared to let them tumble out. They are bigger than me and are all me. This love I feel for you – is a gift I give to you and is a gift I get to revel in the reflection of for myself. Its possibilities are unbound.

Today, I am using the light to inhabit space. I am working on approaching the surface of my skin. Each day. Inch by inch. Each little crevice. Melting. Opening. When I am ready.

What a gift you have given me.

My love.

uncertainty

This path

Through the woods

Winds my way to you

You will hold me

You will see me

You will catch me

I will let go

I will surrender

I will be present

In my body

In this moment

Until everything is carved away

Except for those things

That are too big

To clutch in one’s grip

Love

For your children

For you

For me

The tropics

every day the trees were drenched with rain

every day the sun shined through the cloud

every day we tucked in our shirts and straightened out the wrinkles

every day we pushed into each other deep into the night

every day I started to unfurl the pedals of my blossom

A clearing in the woods

I have been wanting to start writing for a while, but have been reluctant to start. How do I being to express the journey that I have been on these past couple of years?

I’ve arrived at a clearing in the woods. A clearing that feels like home. A clearing that I didn’t realize I was looking for but am now realizing I was missing so deeply. This is such a precious place I find myself. This is where I find myself with my new partner. He feels ancient. He feels solid like the ocean waves. I finally have something I can push against. Something that makes me feel alive. Sometimes it feels little scary, but in a good way. This is not a static place. It’s dynamic and evolving. I look forward to writing down my thoughts and sharing my experiences as I go.